A quick apology for my rant yesterday. I have not been feeling right for a week or so. Today is a new day - and I am feeling much better - back to my usual self. I have never mentioned that I had post-natal depression after each of the children. It became worse with each child. If post-natal depression does not resolve itself postpartum it is then diagnosed as clinical depression. It is something I find very difficult to talk about. I feel like a failure. Being a Christian - I was feeling like even more of a failure. Christians shouldn't have mental illness should they? Big misconception. I was blessed to have wonderful doctor's and my children's doctor's who explained to me Depression IS a medical condition, just as diabetes is. I hid my depression for many years feeling so guilty and that I was crazy. I don't know many times how I coped - albeit for God's grace.
I have been following Lori's blog after stumbling across it a few weeks ago. In the last couple of years - I have had so many people come across my path who have dealings with mental illness. I am one of the many who has a long line of family history of mental disorders. What hope was there in the gene pool? My only hope is Him who looks after me each day. And not keeping it a secret. So there you have it. The last week, I was not functioning well. It is always great to wake up and know the cloud has gone. Until we meet again. Today I am feeling better. The kids and I are going to go on a lovely Autumn walk when we pick Miss G up from school today.
So I supposed it was time I let you know. Share another part of me. I don't need to be ashamed. We are living in a new community and it takes time to get to know people. It is nice and quiet.
We are going to read Autumn books today (the boys are home from school) and maybe make some Autumn crafts. I was reading through an amazing book - so many weaving examples! I can't wait. I found the camera cable!
Love Rach xo